today has been tiring.getting up at 6 in the morning (thank god not 4 in the morning!hahaa!right,not funny. -.- )to go with mummy to Gleneagles.surgery is at 830.we got there,settled down and the nurse came in,she had to shave her cheeps!!zomg right.but it's a hysterectomy!!so duh.

hmmm,so yeah.i soon got over being traumatised.hurr. -.- then they wheeled her in half an hour early to prep her.watching too many grey's anatomy episodes(hahaa!)i felt dumbly emotional.like it was a risky surgery but actually it was really nothing to worry about(according to the filipino nurse!!haha.)now i kinda understand why i really hate hospitals.my aunt came then my godma and we went down for breakfast.soon it was alrdy about 10am so we headed up to wait outside the operating theatre.all the people sitting there had the worst facials ever they were like all sulking,that made me feel tons better.hurr.so waited for what seemed like eons then she came out at like 1145.

i felt so sick while waiting like i was going to throw up,anxious i guess. (oh i got a new Guess wallet!!) right out of point.so,i kept blaming it on my breakfast!heh. yeah,mummy looked pale and,well,different :( so i just kept saying i went around the world and back and she still hadn't come out of the OR.heh.and kept joking with her.she couldn't really laugh cuz she was feeling discomfort from the surgery and it was beginning to hurt so she just kept smiling with her eyes closed,it was so cute.anyways,headed back to the room and she feel asleep very quickly,guess its quite tiring getting wheeled around.and i think it was scary for her going in alone and all.well,she's probably still sleeping and i'm heading back to the hospital soon.it's pouring!!!cabs,come get me!heh.school tmr D: I WANT MY FREAKING PHONE!!hahaa.stupid tetris.hurr


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anyhoots.another thing.
joy kuan.
sorry if this comes out or starts off angry.gimme a lil' credit.
you have the nerve asking sophia to ask me to pay.i dont care if you know if i have a phone at the moment or not.i'm sure you know my hse number and can contact me somehow.so first things first,going through sophia really put me off.haven't you made her deal with more then her fair share??second,sophia's right.i don't think i am going to pay,cuz the way you've been handling things is really...i can't even find the word that says it all.suddenly i'm SELFISH?i thought you said you just wanted us to all just come together for the chalet,since when did it all become abt $$?you see how you contradicted yourself?it all comes down to booking the chalet when not everyone had confirmed.i understand that you had to book early,i'm not unreasonable but really,given the situation,i find it difficult to understand how you can keep asking people to pay when they didn't even go?i know it's difficult and you have to pay your mum back?

and i hate to be blunt but is that our problem?i don't wanna seem like i keep blaming you cuz it's also our fault for not going in the end.frankly i would've still gone if you hadn't been the way you were with sophia (she was wrong to have said some things too,i understand.) about going to the bbq and not thinking about how your best friend would feel.between you two,you have your tiffs,that's your problem but seriously joy,it occured to me that if you genuinely wanted us to be there you would've tried not to argue and just get us to come.sophia just wanted to shut up and go.but when you said,"don't come then."that really did it.i'm quite tired of this whole thing.it was days ago,even a week or two ago.can we please stop all this nonsense.

if you think all that i'm saying is nonsense then that's good for you but if you reply to this in a tasteful way like i have tried to do here,then it's worth talking abt,if not then yeah,it ends here.and pls direct all you want to say,to me.and i finally ask you,(i've wanted to for so long)to pls not complain to everyone that's not concerned.

frankly,i don't wanna bring this up but just to tell you,i really cherish wanru,whether you choose to roll your eyes to that.that's up to you but i really don't want our friendship to be strained,just becuz she's there for you,that's good and rightfully her choice.(AND,i know you think otherwise but there are no sides,we're just all trying to stand up for ourselves.) you say what you like but pls think of others.i'm no angel but i don't think i would've hurt my best friend in any situation,or at least seemed to try to.bet you didn't even know you did,cuz i think you take it for granted that sophia's always strong.well,i think i've said my piece.i fully used my right to say something,use yours,but not when you think your fuming mad taking the things i said the wrong way pls?so that's that,have a good day.for the record,i took an hour carefully typing this out,if that doesn't say smth,i dont know what will.


chess.